I know it’s been pretty quiet recently, but I’m going crazy with mid-year assessment. I have assignments coming out of my ears, some of them I’m starting and finishing on the day it’s due.
Haha. I don’t know why I do this to myself. My brain must like being stressed.
I promise things will pick up again once June/July holidays finally arrive.
On another note, my tattoo is healing nicely. Its peeling, which apparently is a good thing. Although, the whole healing a tattoo thing is REALLY inconvenient! You can’t wear anything that rubs. You can’t have a bath. Showers have to be cool (and here in Australia we are entering Winter, showering in cold water is SO not appealing!). Showers also have to be short so the skin doesn’t get water logged and scab heavily. You have to put cream on it three times a day at least. You can’t rub or scratch it so you don’t smudge the writing. You can’t use certain creams and soaps or it will draw the ink out of your skin. The tattoo can’t see sun … The list goes on and on! Thankfully this is only for the first two weeks or until your tattoo is healed, then you can start acting like a normal person again.
I have my tattoo on my hip, which I love, but because nothing can rub on it I have to wear my pants just below my hip bone. It’s really uncomfortable and looks so odd. I can’t wait until it’s healed properly.
Life is getting better and better. Nothing major has happened really, it’s not like I’ve met the most amazing guy or anything. But small things happen that brighten my day. Like a close friend of mine, due to deploy soon, will surprise me at Uni or text me unexpectedly. He always knows how to make me smile.
My coach called a few days ago and has said that I am able to move my horse to her stud and training farm. Which is fantastic, it means that I can start training for State and Nationals again.
And my mind is able to think about other things than just my ex. I am able to go a day or so without thinking about him. I know he is still in the back of my mind, kinda like i can “feel” him there. But now I am able to go about my day without hurting and I can smile, laugh at our memories rather than bite my lip and hope the tears don’t fall.
I still miss him a lot though and I don’t know whether it’s because my friend is going to deploy soon and I’m transferring my emotions or if I really do miss him. I know that I am happy when we talk and are able to talk for awhile without killing each other.
But small things like that make my day a little brighter.
This might be my last post for a few weeks, but I’m still here. I still check in. So if you want to talk, I’ll answer.
Keep your head up Beautifuls!