Every time I think about it my heart stops … Or beats really fast. I don’t know. I’m half way between excited and down right nervous. And before you start asking questions, yes I am talking about my ex. No we aren’t together but we are working things out … Slow and steady.
In 8 days I will be packed and traveling to another state.
A road trip I have always wanted to take. It’s going to take 2 days and a nights stay in another state, but for 3 days and 3 nights it will be all about Us. No family drama, no Uni drama, no drama. Just Him, me and a lot of time to catch up. Four months is a long time. Longer than we have ever gone before.
I’m taking a friend’s puppy down with me to his new home …. So it will be a long trip with just me, spring weather, open roads and a 14 week old puppy. I’m fairly sure I’m going to be tired as by the time I get to my destination but I will have time before he gets in. The only thing better would be if I could have organised it as a surprise. But it would of been impossible.
I can’t even begin to explain how I’m feeling. I’m sitting at home alone with Gossip Girl running in the background, the dogs curled up next to me and the bird chatting away nosily. All i can think about is when I’ll see him walk through that door. I always think about those moments. When I used to fly down to him, i’d always think about what I would do/say when i saw him standing there, waiting for me. But it came naturally. The hellos, the first kisses and hugs ….The “see you soon”s … All came so naturally for us. I hope this time is the same. I hope I don’t freeze.
I have so many appointments set up and I’ve purposefully made the next 8 days the most busy so time doesn’t have the chance to drag by and torture me.
This post makes absolutely no sense … Bare with me, my head doesn’t make any sense either. All I want is the next week to hurry up and get here …. Waiting sucks.
And these butterflies are going to kill my insides! They need to be squashed.
So it’s been awhile since I posted anything, let along a recipe. I’m just incredibly broke right now and I’m living off bread and cheese and water. Seriously? So much for the “losing weight and toning up for summer”.
But I’m trying to get back on track. I have quite a big sum of money sitting in my bank, and granted a large bit that is for my bills …. But whatever.
This is something I stole from my Uni’s cafeteria. It’s pretty much pesto pasta and there’s no real recipe. But damn it’s good and I know its full of carbs but it does fill you up and if you have it with salad … Well you’re doing pretty good.
Pesto Pasta With a hint of parmesan, olives and balsamic sauce.
A bag of 500gs pasta (spirally because it doesn’t stick together as much as other pastas do)
I jar of Leggos Pesto (I know you can get this brand in Australia. But any brand will do. And if you’re brave enough you could even make your own pesto!)
As many olives as you like (i used gourmet ones. They were Thai marinated stuffed with garlic, herbs and spices)
Balsamic sauce (I used something a little different, it was sweet rather than bitter. But the bitter ones work better I think)
Boil water and chuck the pasta in, throw in some salt as well to reduce the pasta sticking when it gets cooler
Once cooked drain the pasta
You can either put the jar of pesto in when its hot or room temperature (i let the pasta cool)
Either whole or cut put the olives in.
And once pasta is cool put as much parmesan you like (i put a fair bit in and then after mixing it I put some on top)
Serve with some balsamic sauce
Really this simple recipe is all about YOU. What you want and what you like. There is not such thing as too much or too little and you cannot make a mistake (well unless you don’t cook the pasta!)
Today I had set aside to organize my life (yet again) … But I missed my alarm, fell down a couple of stairs and did my ankle in, realised that no one in my family has gone shopping (including me) so there is NOTHING to eat and noticed that my bank account has been frozen (still). Awesome start to the morning.
Hopefully after the icepack has melted and I have strapped my ankle it will be okay and I will be able to drive to my bank and figure out why my account hasn’t been unfrozen yet.
I have about a million assignments to do, thankfully they aren’t due for another couple of weeks but … The weather is too nice to be stuck inside writing up stupid Psych papers. Excuses Excuses I know but I’ve had a crappy week so far .. Im entitled to them.
I’m sorry for the lack of recipe updates, I have been so poor and busy lately that I just haven’t been able to get to the shops let alone cook something and have time to eat it like a civilised human being. But they will be coming, I have Uni holidays coming up at the end of this month and its when I plan to start a whole new routine. Make a few more changes to my life.
Talking about changes, I can’t believe how much I’ve grown and changed this year. From the start of this year to now .. I never thought i’d make it this far. But I have and I’ve had the strength to let go, change and grow. It amazes me what you can do when you set your heart and mind to something.
And as for my last post?
That was …. I think I was totally stressed and tired from Uni. When he told me I was in a class and it was just the icing on top of a very unstable cake. But when I woke up the next morning my head and heart was clear. I was surprised at how quickly I “got over it”. But as another blogger explained to me, he took me back to a place of hurt. It wasn’t that I was falling back into that big black hole more that he reminded me of someone I used to be and the hurt I felt.
A few days after he brought it up again and tried to understand WHY he did it. He cannot figure out why he slept with her and kept reassuring me that it wasn’t anything to do with me personally. It wasn’t because she was prettier, or smarter or better then me in any way, shape or form. His explanation and this other blogger’s amazing comments helped me to understand what was going on.
I also explained to him that yes it did hurt and it did upset me at first but that it’s something I, we, can move past. I know there’s no point in tearing him apart over it or causing more damage to our already shaky friendship.
And on that note …. Spring is finally here. Flowers, sunshine and warmth. It means that summer is just that much closer as is christmas, beach, parties and holidays. And before we know it, it will be a new year with new possibilities and new loves.
Some may not be ready, but bring on December …. Christmas. Summer. Beach and a whole new year.